Life and Times of Skippy el Turturro

"Betterman"
We live in a world full of firsts.

First sound. First step. First laugh. First day of school. First kiss. First time. First job. First paycheck. First marriage.

First day of the rest of your life.

I've been very indecisive this weekend. In fact, I think the only thing that I've been decisive about is the fact that I don't know why I've been indecisive. I was indecisive about whether to drive to school on Friday or not. I was indecisive about going to Michigan this weekend. I was indecisive about going to Michigan today. I was indecisive about going to a Superbowl Party.

So, what happened this weekend? I didn't drive to school. I didn't go to Michigan yesterday, nor today. I didn't go to a Superbowl party that my family was invited to.

As my parents were walking out the door, my dad asked me a question. That question was "Why aren't you going?" I told him that I didn't know why I was going.

Then, for what I believe to be the first time ever, he asked "What's wrong?"

It wasn't in a sarcastic way. It wasn't in a chastising way. It wasn't in an angry way. It was in a loving, caring, fatherly way.

I've never had an open relationship with my dad. He comes home, we greet each other, he takes his shower and stays in his room until dinner. After dinner, he goes back to his room and does God knows what. I've never had full, meaningful conversations with him about life. I wish I did, but I never have.

I don't know why, but him asking me that question cleared my mind. It just ... cleared my mind.

I'm going to take a walk.

Bye.

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